#this is actual agony
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Fighting the adhd "i dont wanna do this anymore" so i can get even a fraction of this work done
#i did no work yesterday#and this shit is due tuesday#and im busy tomorrow#i hate that my brain cannot sit still for one minute so i can do this#this is actual agony#adhd
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I think it should be illegal to be inspired to make something and then still not have the mental creative capacity to do it
#this is actual agony#i want to write music. like i genuinely want to#which is rare#but inspiration doesn't even matter#i can be inspired and still lack the ability to write#like. how. why does this still happen#idk i'll shut up now there is literally no way i could explain this to anyone#kind of feel like i'm the only person in the universe with this problem#mine
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My favourite thing ever is when Jason is drawn to resemble Bruce because I KNOWW his ass would HATE it😭😭
Dick: hey Jason you haven’t forgotten our meet u— oh my god are you ok?? What happened?
Jason *rocking back and forth on the floor with a traumatised look in his eyes, whispering in horror* someone mistook me for Bruce in the grocery store today.
Random kid at a charity event pointing at Jason standing grumpily in a corner: who’s that?
Bruce (smiling fondly): that’s my son Jason!
Random kid: he looks like you! :D
Jason: *leaves the room*
Bruce (running after him): jason, Jason they didn’t mean anything by it, Jason, you’re going to jump off a balcony just because of a child’s observation Jason?
#Jason dangling off the balcony sobbing#THIS IS THE WORST EXPERIENCE OF MY LIFE#I CANT TAKE THIS SHIT ANYMORE#I SHOULD HAVE STAYED DEAD ITS TOO LATE FOR ME#WHAT HAVE I EVER DONE TO DESERVE THIS#actually don’t answer that#AGONY PURE AGONY#I WISH I WAS BACK IN ETHIOPIA AT LEAST THAT WAS MORE MERCIFUL#Bruce: *nervously* Jason please step back from the ledge#dc comics#batman#batfam#dcu#batfamily#bruce wayne#dc robin#jason todd#red hood#bruce Wayne and Jason Todd#good dad bruce wayne#shitpost#incorrect batman quotes#incorrect batfamily quotes
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Can you imagine if the Aftons were in FNAF into the pit
#myart#chloesimagination#comic#fnaf#five nights at freddy's#fnaf fanart#afton family#evan afton#david afton#oswald fnaf#fredbear#michael afton#into the pit#fnaf 4#I remember before the ITP game dropped#People were hoping we’d get more insight on the Aftons or missing kids#and we sorta did BUT NOT to a huge extent#but I think the idea was interesting#the bite incident and Michael’s foxy mask does show up in game too#so it’s actually not out of the question the aftons could show up#their agony is tied to this place as well#Oswald meets cc he must protect the boy pff
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switching from fine to depressed and/or near suicidal like a traffic light 😭
#˚₊‧꒰ა all knowing and all agony#lukayaps#jiraiblr#jirai kei#jiraiblogging#landmineblr#jirai danshi#vent#mental illness#landmine type#subcul jirai#lifestyle jirai#lifestyle landmine#jirai#jiraikei#actually borderline#bpd#actually bpd#bpd things#landmine blogging#landmine posting#jirai posting
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my paper topic is so cool but i wish i didn’t have to write it right now cuz guys i’m just not feeling it i’m sorry but i’m not
#this is actual agony#i’d love to be writing about nuxalk syllabic structure#sometime else#my brain is not fucking working#corpus mental breakdown watch
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#i am suffering i’m not even joking#living in agony at the thought i’ll never actually have him#just wanna sit in his lap and be called princess 😩🫠#old man!logan#logan howlett#logan howlett x reader#wolverine x reader
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Delighted to discover that the way shadow unlocks new abilities in sxsg is a perfect parallel of the pringles iron maiden
#fr the genuine unhappiness of those cutscenes paired with the 'yahoo!' energy of the unlock Kills me each time#rewatched a few of them to get a ref of that weird gear thing and realized they actually made unique character animations for each one#like I thought they were just reusing shadow writhing in agony every time but No they did a Whole New Thing each go around!#I respect the dedication to making unique iterations of one guy having a very not good time#sxsg#shadow#shadow the hedgehog#sonic x shadow generations#I don't thiiink this counts as a spoiler? cause most of those cutscenes were already shared in trailers?#lmk if i'm off base there#doodles#my art#comic#anyways the pringles iron maiden kills me again like it's impossible for that dialogue to not be fucking hilarious#i'll probably reblog the ling one tomorrow it's still one of my favorite things i've ever drawn lmfao#the 'SHIT FUCKING HELL!!!' always gets me#slowly figuring out how to draw this guy#these games have a very unique style especially for the eyes and mouths that's a bit of a trick to get used to
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this is when i come clean and admit i sketched some stuff based on my own fic :///
(the full version is on my bsky, but its not actually explicit. tmblr just has Odd Rules)
#one piece#luffy#trafalgar law#lulaw#suggestive#cw suggestive#like. racier than my usual stuff. but nothing is actually shown thanks to angles and luffy’s big head#these are actually almost a year old. i just relined/tweaked stuff over the old sketches#i cannot express enough that no nudity is actually shown but i was SUFFERING THE AGONIES posting this#also linking it to my fic. bc embarrassingly i used to be a fic author who occasionally drew#and now im a fan artist who occasionally writes#pls. i need to write again or ill die. but i forget how#OH#wano spoilers
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reading the end talks knowing how everyone feels about staying with each other feels like being beaten over the head with a hammer. the subtext that Siffrin is taking away from each conversation confirming his own expectations of the others' expectations, versus the subtext that each of them are desperately trying to convey back to him without coming across as weird and clingy because of their OWN perceptions of everyone's expectations.
Bonnie (regular): "Wait, that's such a long journey though!!! I'm not gonna go find you just so I can punch you if you're wrong!!! That's dumb!!! [...] Okay, then I'll believe you!!! Hopefully I won't have to walk forever to punch you!!!"
Bonnie (friendquest): "...I'll miss you, Frin. ... I know you'll leave soon, but, um... Y-You should come by Bambouche one day! So you can meet my sister!!! So I can say... "That's Frin! They helped me a bunch! They're really cool!!!" So come and see me sometime, yeah? Promise? [...] I'll be waiting for you, Frin!!!"
"i know you'll leave soon" "that's such a long journey" assuming that Siffrin would never want to stay close by, that wherever he goes would be arduous for them to reach. ...and, maybe in Siffrin's interpretation, not worth the annoyance and exertion it would take to reach them.
Isabeau (regular): "I can't wait to go back to my old job, you know? Make sure to say hi when you're near Jouvente, 'kay?"
Isabeau (friendquest): "...I hope...I hope you'll at least visit sometime, Sif. Our journey is over, but don't be a stranger, okay?"
Isabeau, short and restrained after his aborted confessions. maybe keeping it brief and simple to not overcomplicate the triumph of the moment, hoping he'll have the chance to express himself properly later (they're all having dinner together tonight, after all! they'll have time for feelings talks then! why wouldn't they?). not wanting to overwhelm or assume. how can he ask for anything more substantial than a visit before Siffrin knows how he feels, what he might want, what Siffrin might want?
Odile (regular): "But now I can finally get back to traveling. [...] It'll be weird to travel alone now, but I'll get used to it again. Or I could just go home to Ka Bue... Hm... [...] Ha...I'll miss you, Siffrin. You're a little strange, but you're a good kid. Maybe try letting down your walls every once in a while, huh? And come to Ka Bue anytime. Maybe we'll meet again during your travels."
Odile (friendquest): "It was fun. Traveling with everyone. I will miss it. [...] I... I suppose everyone will go back to their homes, now... Mirabelle will probably stay here, Isabeau will probably go back to Jouvente, and we'll ask someone to accompany Bonnie back to Bambouche... And what about you, Siffrin? Will you be going back home? [...] Oh... Why no-- ... No. Sorry, this isn't any of my business. But... No home at all... I never knew. I'm sorry. [...] ...I'll probably be going back to Ka Bue soon. Our paths will diverge soon... But if you ever come towards Ka Bue... Please come by, and say hello, won't you? ...Don't be a stranger, Siffrin."
Odile, reinforcing everyone's assumptions, backing away from the opening Siffrin gave her out of respect for their privacy, and sharing more of her own hand than Siffrin may even realize—resigning herself back to the quiet of her own company after the warmth and noise of being with everyone else. but even as a fellow traveler, both ~obviously intending~ to continue their journeys, there's no suggestion that their paths may intertwine deliberately, only inevitably diverge and briefly cross by happenstance or on a whim.
Mirabelle (regular): "...You can be so nice, Siffrin. [...] You know, um, um... Um!!! I know we haven't known each other for that long... B-But I hope you know I really treasure your company! I do! I really really do!!! And so... Thank you! Thank you for accompanying me on this journey! [...] ...I'm sure you're excited to go back to traveling on your own... But don't forget me, okay? Come see me at Dormont anytime! I'd love to hang out! Promise!!!"
Mirabelle (friendquest): "I have a lot ahead of me, still. But I never would have realized this without you, Siffrin! S-So, whenever you're done traveling, or you'd like to stay someplace for a little bit... Maybe think about coming to visit Dormont? Just to say hi? B-But you don't have to!!! It's just an idea!!! [...] I'm glad we're friends, Siffrin. ... D-Don't forget about me on your journey, okay!"
Mirabelle got so goddamn close to an actual, straightforward invitation for them to stay with her. "whenever you're done traveling or you'd like to stay someplace for a bit" could be a long-term thing of indefinite duration! but then she anxiously backtracks to "visit," "just say hi," "you don't have to! it was just an idea!" out of fear of coming on too strong, imposing too much. she's the one afraid of being forgotten, here, worrying that she'll fade as easily from their mind as anything else, unmissed. trying to balance emphasizing that his company is something that she genuinely wants, but leaving room for them to back out without feeling awkward if it's not something that they genuinely want.
in every case, Siffrin's plans "to keep/go back to traveling" are assumed, the distance is assumed, the separation is inevitable. it's all Siffrin can hear, couched in polite, socially mandated overtures to keep in touch. everyone will be gone and they will be alone again, outside of brief, occasional reunions (and always reunions that he would have to impose to initiate—how can they choose to visit Siffrin if they have no home to visit?—how can Siffrin know if they truly meant it when they asked, if they'll still mean it as time goes on?).
it's all the rest of the party can imagine, too—of course their mysterious rogue will quietly disappear back into the forests and crowds, impossible to find or contact after it's all over. they're left asking, begging, through the clenched teeth of social restraints, not to be left behind or forgotten, either. please visit, they say. don't you get it? don't you know how important to me you've become, how much i want to keep you in my life? they don't say.
and now all i can hear when i read back these lines is
i can't ask you to stay/come with me, but please, please don't let this be the last time i see you.
#mypost#isat spoilers#in stars and time spoilers#isat#in stars and time#i was watching the kpop demon hunters movie and stopped during the climax to write this post.#it's a good movie the Thoughts just took over#for some reason i remembered watching my friend play through the game after i'd finished it#reaching the end and re-reading all these conversations and just inwardly screaming in agony#knowing EXACTLY what siffrin is taking away from it every time#and what each of them are actually saying-but-trying-not-to-say-because-that-would-be-weird#sorry bonnie's bit is short i feel like i'm very bad at talking about them. maybe that should be my next goal. understanding bonnie better#isat meta#isat thoughts
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Gi-hun and Jung-bae hanging out pls?
day 19 || I NEED TO DRAW JUNG-BAE MORE IM LOWKEY PISSED AT MYSELF FOR NEGLECTING HIM
#daily gi-hun#seong gihun#park jungbae#click for better quality#hes gi-huns ride or die i need to put some RESPECT on his name#jung-bae and gi-hun friendship always gets a smile out of me#esp their pre-show selves#theres enough for me to gleam a basic dynamic and run with it#jung-bae lovesss ragebaiting gi-hun its so entertaining to him because gi-hun would get so wound up so fast and so easily#jung-bae is just one of those types of people that has teasing as their show of affection i thinks#he didnt even bat an eye at gi-hun tryna elbow him in the face in the first episode#that leads me to believe the dude regularly dodges punches from gi-hun#technically brought back old gi-hun by ragebaiting him hard enough. I CACKLED SO LOUDLY WHEN HE SWORE ON GI-HUNS VERY DEAD MOM#and then blaming him for his divorce JUNG-BAE IS SO SILLY#its not one-sided btw pre-show gi-hun definitely got his lick back plenty of times#they were enabling each other HARD which could actually make for something rather unhealthy (and lowkey did a little bit)#me and the besties shared gambling addiction and the agony that it brings us#i love their friendship i miss them#idk smth about having not seen gi-hun for three years and being Completely ghosted by him yet jung-bae picks up right where he left off#and i think. that is something gi-hun needed. that little flicker of his past life staying by his side#that little lights been snuffed out though.#hwang in-ho you will be dragged through the streets for what you did#squid game#my art#doodle#squid game fanart#seong gi hun#park jung bae#took me like a month to get to this i am soooo sorry#prompts
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The Shockwave harem wishes a Happy New Year and a merry "Kiss more women in 2025"
Alt version under cut
#maccadam#transformers#elita one#starscream#soundwave#megatron#optimus prime#shockwave#shocklita#shockstar#wavewave#megashock#shockop#senator shockwave#if you squint#Optimus is stuck in the past#remember me as i was#or some gay shit like that#(I'm in deep agony actually)#humanformers#yuriformers
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thinking about how kim dokja thinks he's alone in the world and there is no one in the world who understands him or can possibly understand him.
but. there yoo sangah is. yoo sangah who discusses literature with him. yoo sangah who understands kim dokja bc she is very perceptive about people and very empathetic and also bc they have the kind of friendship where words aren't needed. yoo sangah who read every book in the library about kim dokja bc she was genuinely interested in her friend's life and bc she wanted to understand him. yoo sangah who figured out it was 49 and not real kdj and figured out what he did but didn't say a word bc she understood and respected his decision even though she wanted her friend back more than anything.
yoo sangah who witnessed his mundanity and monstrosity both, and loved him either way. loves him despite every irredeemable quality he thinks he has. yoo sangah who wants to be his best friend in every lifetime and live together right next to each other. yoo sangah, his best friend who understands him without words.
#orv#orv spoilers#yoo sangah#kim dokja#idk i just feel like she gets him in a way that few people do and wordlessly#like ofc she's never been through the things he has and cant relate in that sense#but she doesnt need to bc she just gets him. bc shes really good at reading people and very empathetic#but also their conversations are like.. they have this silent understanding. tacit understanding we have a phrase for it in mandarin#LIKE SHE JUST GETS HIM#THEYRE PLATONIC SOULMATES#THEYRE BEST FRIENDS IN EVERY LIFETIME#PLATONIC DOKSANG ENDS ME. THEYRE MY EVERYTHING#PLATONIC SOULMATES ARE REAL AND THEYRE IT#IS2G!!!#i wrote the post in calm language but im actually screaming and clutching my head in agony#mp: orv
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i deserve compensation for enduring all this suffering
#˚₊‧꒰ა all knowing and all agony#lukayaps#jiraiblr#jirai kei#jiraiblogging#landmineblr#jirai danshi#vent#mental illness#landmine type#lifestyle jirai#subcul jirai#jirai#jiraikei#lifestyle landmine#landmine posting#jirai posting#landmine blogging#jirai blogging#bpd#actually borderline#bpd vent#actually bpd#bpd thoughts
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CARDS
DAY 4

my favorite dysfunctional woke family…
#ROULX AND LANCER MAKE ME SO UPSET#/POS#I LOVE THEM SO MUCH 😭#‘…how is he anyhow?’#ROULXXXXXX PLEASE#Drawing these guys actually makes me so happy#they just#look at them…#Through this little 10 days challenge#im finding new ways to enjoy deltarune#and its characters and stories and everything#and new ways to enjoy drawing things ive never drawn before#BASICALLY THIS CHALLENGE IS THE BEST THING IVE EVER DONE#IM SO COOL#Im way more excited for Deltarune too so thats nice (im in constant agony)#Deltarune Chapter 1#Roulxs Kaard#Lancer#king deltarune
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